friendly date with heartbeat

hahaha i'm happy right now coz i had a friendly date with heartbeat, I didn't
realize that I could feel so happy with a friend, it turns out that I just need to change my perspective or change my outlook on things and that was when I felt happier and livelier way than before. I'm so happy because we get to dine in shakeys and although there was this saleslady who thought I was a korean who delayed our time, It was stillworth it since haha I didn't realize I could fool a lot of people already with my looks haha. Anyway then we became closer than before with heartbeat and I thank myself for being patient also humble hahaha. I also thank her for being the same. I realize if you want to be happy, if you want to be with a person then just say so, just show it to him/her because they will get the idea and still nothing will get lost if you say you like to be with him/her indirectly, that is. With regards to the band, I love them. I could see myself with them but then It's hard cause I don't want to get attached to them. I might feel sad if they don't contact anymore or what. I also hate the dogs in the area, I have dog phobia and it really irks me that I'm the only one who has this disease haha hahai, anyway I want to be happy but I don't know. Happiness is short-lived. I wasn't able to go to mass and I know the Lord is already so so hurt with me and no amount of sorries could ever atone for my sins but I really just wanted to be with my friends :( I miss them so much it hurts. :( I like her quote :((( I can never leave them Lord, that is why I don't want to go out of Velez College. I know that I have my friends in there, possible true friends. :(