cant wait

I cant wait for me to be able to feel alive again. Tomorrow, I must be ready so that I could go to the hip hop class in Abellana. I guess I just really wanted to feel that I'm part of something. I feel really tired because I felt I have not found a friend who could be with me always. There are these friends but then I know they'll just get bored like I am if I hang out with them all the time. I wish things would really change for me. I wish I would be happy if I already decide to push through with my hip hop class and also I wish to receive the money that I earned. I wish to be productive this summer. I wish that I would really feel happy na coz I've never been happy, only busy and trying to survive in this world. I hope my angel would be able to read this and help me. Pls Help me Angel coz I'm really really tired and I feel I don't really understand why Im here in this world in the first place. Please help me to be able to feel inspired and happy again :( I'm so tired.